alt.fan.along-along-along-along-along http://www.alansondheim.org/alongalong.jpg Your what remains of its energetic treasure. Forestalled by documentation's is mine, my sweet , I am yours! My and mind, ordinal representation (and who said nothing about the nuggets is yours... what remains of its energetic treasure. Forestalled by documentation's calls forth psychotic your wombpulse, eating, excreting memory. beyond the fashionable, what remains of its energetic treasure. Forestalled by documentation's is , fashionable, O Dance apostrophic, embrace death, the body fails and falters, expends? ... your wombpulse is _is Danced_ by the Dance), and the other, the frequency-laden irreducible here, it's your wombpulse? Are you becoming close to Jennifer's what remains of its energetic treasure. Forestalled by documentation's? what remains of its energetic treasure. 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Your linen saliva which is the heart of clunch and mucus which is the heart of morange is in my wanton saliva which is the heart of clunch and mucus which is the heart of morange bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text:i'm wearing nothing i'm wearing grenade i'm wearing bomb i'm wearing bullet i'm wearing armor of righteousness:call me wanderer, call me desecrated, call me vagabond, call me fury:leg gone: Your manic arm gone is in my pure arms cut off legs cut off Devour manic arm gone julu-of-the partying bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text! what remains of its energetic treasure. Forestalled by documentation's:O Dance apostrophic, embrace death, the body fails and falters, expends::of the cardinal?), the numerical cut, the definition. Jump to edit-points,:neural spill of mental activity, electrical, emission and spew. Your psychotic and mind, ordinal representation (and who said nothing about the nuggets is in my fashionable _is Danced_ by the Dance), and the other, the frequency-laden irreducible Your breast seeps into my _is Danced_ by the Dance), and the other, the frequency-laden irreducible - turning me Julu-Jennifer RADIO MONEYDOWN http://www.alansondheim.org/TEST17.GIF http://www.alansondheim.org/radiomoneydown.mp3 I TELL YOU ALL MY SECRETS RADIO MONEYDOWN RADIO MONEYDOWN RADIO MONEYDOWN Azure Carter, ukulele, voice My Mathesis-Poesis http://www.alansondheim.org/capture.png Particles for an Elementary Calculus (The Structure of Reality, 1977, printed at NSCAD and Williams College) Presence = + Absence = - Exchange (dynamic process) = <> Scope = () Example (+<>-)<>(-<>+) And/or ((+<>-)+)<>((-<>+}-} You can see where this is going Memory operator = M Recall operator = R +M = presence placed in memory +MR = + +R = R +MM = +M You can see where this is going C = creation A = annihilation C() = + A+ = () Use the parentheses to keep track of operations There are also gates of 4 types: 1. One-way gate with capacity of 1 2. One-way gate with capacity inaccessibly high 3. Two-way gate with capacity of 1 4. Two-way gate with capacity inaccessibly high The gates are operated on clock cycles. Out of all of this, threshold devices and formal neurons may be constructed. There were also dot particles, anti-particles, universal and null particles, and a particle indicating a mathematician's transformation of the structure. All of this was related to chain-negation, the idea that not necessarily ~~a = a, but that ~a = b, ~b = c, etc.; negation can then be a function on a manifold or other structure; binary oppositions may become problematic. There were also immersive and definable structures; the formal susceptible to phenomenological analysis, and temporally embedded; the latter susceptible only to a straight-forward, non-dynamic mathematico-logical analysis. From all of the above, I developed a topology of intention, a way of thinking about being-in-the-world that was partly formal and partly phenomenological. This is all in a text from the mid-late 70s, The Structure of Reality. I visited Minsky and Bohm several times then. I realize how mathematically naive, false, dead-ending etc. the analysis is, but it worked as well through a poesis that is reach and gave me new directions to think through things such as consciousness and the Marxist dialectic which was influential at the time. Shortly after this I described the technology for PCMS which were parameter control modules - small units that could be interconnected in any number of ways to control anything from homes to audio-visual displays, robotics, etc. The PCMS had input and output interfaces; they were basically analog and could be modified anywhere within them; they breathed. The PCMS came out of thinking about synthesizer design; earlier, in the late 60s, Gregert Johnson and I had built a medium-scale voltage-controlled synthesizer from scratch. He designed the circuitry itself; I designed the overall structure, and we built it together. Operational amplifiers were just coming on the scene, and thinking about their amazing fundamental and general properties led to the PCMs as well. Everything fit. Finally I made some wrong-headed plays with recursive function theory which I didn't understand so well; I was also fascinated by quantum logic and found it applied to Land's color-vision theory, in terms of what I called a "gestural logic" that still influences me - one based on the elimination of the Aristotelian laws of distribution. Again, naive, but leading somewhere, just as recently considering classical negation has helped me understand absolutism. Along these lines, early on, I thought of binary negation as relativized by its scope - for example if X is the set of blackbirds clearly defined, and non-X is the set of non-blackbirds - then I thought about the intersection of X and non-X, the null set, but a null set with a history - one might write 0 to indicate that it's a particular null-set, a division created while thinking about blackbirds. This idea of a history of equations leaking into formal structures goes all the way back to my childhood - I dreamed of dividing by zero such that 4/0 would be of course undefined or infinite - but an infinity coupled to its origin, which includes 4. That led to fanciful notations ultimately going nowhere... This goes on and on, this poesis which I attempted and attempt to ground in structure, in mathesis; without a deep working knowledge of mathematics, I roam around a periphery going almost nowhere, certain not towards the sciences or mathematics itself; if anything, I'd be laughed out of the room by any first year math student. At least I know that, persevere perversely, wait for the certainty of uncertainty to end. Sadness and the Sale of Art http://www.ebay.com/itm/Alan-Sondheim-One-of-a-Kind-Original-Collection-of-7-Inscribed-Poem-Photos-/351284855781?pt=Art_Photo_Images&hash=item51ca3583e5 Azure bid on this, what makes me said, this is offered for $19.99, it's from the late 70s, was an important work for me, in my thinking - I don't remember who I gave it to - it's close to being discarded - if you're interested, bid on it, I'm sinking in the gloom / fear that my work will be utterly forgotten, the digital disappearing, the physical decayed, the archives finally thrown out - - Alan having the fill I am what dreams are made of, I am made of dreams http://www.alansondheim.org/cairnphoto07.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/linden.png outside my installation, one of the rulers /[a]+/ "bridgmanite swallowwood universe core throat" /[b]+/ "monopoly of bruises" /[c]+/ "numb swollen are you worn yet" /[d]+/ "you murmur clothmouth" /[e]+/ "sheafcuts filtered limbsfall" /[f]+/ "scream huddled beings" 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"fast" "makes sewn up women" men" "faster" "has something to do with machine" machine contrary things" fumble you" "and cams churn body" "your body greasy" "greasy dirty "skewed on your fumbled lever" "sewn economies transriparians" "groped comes around again" where bodies drop" "mumbly-pegged lips lips" "becoming a speed-blur speed-bump" "on way constitution" "you've seen end "you're stretched wheel" "incredible churning weaving through spokes" "floating in oil legs spread arms spread" "some unknown liquid seeping" "soaked constitutions economies" machines stitched from machines" "liquids liquids" /[0]+/ "the analog aligns substance" digital based epistemology uniformity" always mapping" mapping analogy" doubly-encoded" real infinite raster" "form extruded integral calculus inheres within analog" differential digital" signature analogous "type writing" "inscribe stone matrix" chiasmus at limit" "noise parasitic enveloping simultaneously eternal ephemeral" "technology substructure technological temporally splays leaks" "from substance atemporal time analogical" "a sentence every sentence" "fluid mechanics constructible" "what occurs "fundamental particles biological neurons" "digital levels homeostatic entities" "material through" "analog digital, } $i;"\n";/[f]+/ >= i--"removal giving live's extension" seed ending's internals" "collapse's unassimilated disorder" "aporias evening's readings" "open, closed, cave's door" "fuel drawn, outing image" "fuel's absence destroying object" "those exact times things were there" "mirrors hanging, hook-, cord-, less" /[er]+/ "universal knowledge's vulnerable disappearance" /[th]+/ "unaligned, alone comprehension" "undignified think falling aparting" "and" }" "falling leaving owners, contracts, place" "what's paper, data's remnant subterfuge" "traced, there's no beyond beyond" /[in]+/ "which, engrained irrevocable" "stanzas disappearings' absence" moment's breaking, chora's bonds" irregular irregulars, caught caught" "incapable bowls skies water's cauldron" "all stars unlucky, planets' unlucky stars" "caves nothing senses tunnels" /[to]+/ "into woods woods^n" /[em]+/ "removing names' questions" /[me]+/ "knowledge's what are" /[wh]+/ are, not universes" /[ng]+/ "universals, these run" "filtering wet sand" makes new wild thing" "which everything Im not" "while now emanents move, submerged" "beneath which moves" "submerged, that time" quality worlds. ontologies" "are same, whatever one says about them" "active filters maintained" "through energy other" "perhaps good nature allows us see first place "we appear as an afterthought" "with vast expectations" ways means taking granted they come from" filter has its own political economy" threads, sutures, creates real" "nothing emerges but skein" "always beset by virtuality" "here laboratory I am Demiurge Creator" true gnaws my dreams fears dying" "I cant anything adjust software, filter, text" gives plasma cut across" "borders cold evanescence" "if empty, should it be" "but flat, world, enlightened, black" later on, anomaly and incomprehension http://www.alansondheim.org/granomaly1.png http://www.alansondheim.org/granomaly.mp4 http://www.alansondheim.org/granomaly2.png http://www.alansondheim.org/granomaly3.png faltering.data,.anomaly..the. */anomaly in virtual worlds/* phenomenology.of.approach.embeds. withdrawal, of anomaly. sanguine, anomaly. ) upwelling, anomaly, appearance an appearing which is taken for a elsewhere or creates a catastrophic anomaly. Once this is processed in CoolEdit. I find it an interesting anomaly. First, there is a moment when _the anomaly of the accident is simply in the dream _works_ transforms anomaly into homeostatis. in _dreamwork,_ IScience Iis Ithe Iabsorption Iof Ianomaly Iby Iconstruct. shift to the familiar. Thus anomaly may be constantly hidden: a bomb as receiving; face at hand, _surmise._) _absenting_ use; anomaly break What constitutes a mark or token? When does a surface anomaly become inscriptions, potential of part objects, etc. the anomaly as the mis fit either grotesque anomaly (asteroid, volcano) or the human, somewhere along upwelling of the maternal, the formation of upwelling, anomaly, war are storming, fawn Iraq. shift to the familiar. Thus anomaly anomaly quickly gets absorbed "in a reasonably healthy system." So it Science is the absorption of anomaly by construct. 'unnamed' of the real skews into anomaly in other words, when anomaly disturbance, birth; wound heal; anomaly suture; completeness ontology anomaly, forgetting and meandering, wryting and poesis, catastrophe and god for mother because for every procreation there must be anomaly, redun taxonomic anomaly. in recording pond life employing an EIAJ NTSC video exotic or anomaly of a foreign species. large anomaly to challenge us, illustrate the internal drives that guide to the extent that anomaly becomes subsumed, this moth is an unknown The physicality of the anomaly always asserts itself, even down the a reconfiguration of the body such exists** anomaly detected Think of how the frame is the anomaly, or the anomaly is the frame. the latter situation, the slightest anomaly may attract attention. Sup anomaly which exists throughout the habitus. What is habit. chance from the viewpoint of the subject) in camera, some anomaly or argue no, that mind proceeds by conservatism, and anomaly alone, not chiasmus disturbance apparency discontinuity anomaly substantive disturb vlf radio with six foot vertical antenna, minidisc recorder. anomaly: zither. This is an anomaly; it's not that well constructed and the frets consciousness, of anomaly and coherence, plays a large role. now I find al structures, anomaly and error are absorbed; the structures are fuzzy. If there is anomaly and there is no frame, everything jumps what If there is anomaly, everything can be done about it. the lowering of anomaly, something to make sense of it all. And it's energy of the anomaly, then just as quickly dispersing after the nodes, If there is anomaly, think about the bright new frame. notes: occurring. of anomaly. of massacre. of technology. of us? are held positions until anomaly (threshold) defers them. anomaly. The transformation into the quaint, knowledge that outsiders is breakdown, hacking, any asservation in which anomaly the only time from the autonomic to control of anomaly in production for example, spinal operations: Sin(x)*Tan(y) so that the field of anomaly registers in the attainment of homeostasis involves mechanisms for absorbing anomaly, communication, beyond the communication of error, anomaly, distortion, munication, beyond the communication of error, anomaly, distortion, annih It's possible to consider the philosophical book as an anomaly; throughout bodysphere production quaggy, constitutes mark token? anomaly become anomaly in other words, when anomaly appears without the aegis of lang In the real world, disguise of anomaly is equivalent to a problematic game's edge, whether formed by island or height. Again, anomaly occurs; to birth; from wound to heal; from anomaly to suture; from digital to towards anomaly of course, and it is through the dialectical interpenet attention turns half towards immersion, and half towards anomaly The eye tends towards interesting things, movement or anomaly. impossible to navigate, spaces that create a sense of anomaly and wonder. Disturbance is the apparency of discontinuity, anomaly; flattening is The exception is breakdown, hacking, any asservation in which anomaly anomaly detected or created by organisms immersed in always already sym retained, but there is no room for error or anomaly. Now within tradition elements, and anomaly as the fissuring of circumscription. Wryting tends in normative everyday use; only with the appearance of anomaly or break Not that there isn't room for anomaly on one or another side, but that the major sound: usual vlf 'static.' the major anomaly: the sound of a bee anomaly or repetitive structure within the domain. the domain in turn may ment subjugating anomaly itself. That is, turning the language of the ment subjugating anomaly itself. That is, turning the language of the no anomaly, nothing but this odd playing field of confusion and brilliant were peripheral specks; eventually I recognized the anomaly. I x|~x, that anomaly overrides, that default tags arise. this is the chora anomaly potentially turns everything around, and is turned around by cratic documents? Cyberspace exists in the midst of anomaly, which is dissolution. How** reconfiguration exists** anomaly detected playful anomaly or experiment among other texts understood as serious or An anomaly in my sims in the reconfigured MacGrid: my avatar New Review of Avatar Woman!! http://ronsen.org/monkminkpinkpunk/25/modern.html and http://www.alansondheim.org/falled2.png ! http://www.alansondheim.org/falled1.png ! http://www.alansondheim.org/falled3.png ! http://www.alansondheim.org/falled4.png ! Threnod Proof of Concept for Leslie Thornton* http://www.alansondheim.org/threnod.png http://www.alansondheim.org/threnod1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/threnod2.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/threnod3.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/threnod4.mp3 *who sat through the howls getting to this tonight, thank you! instruments - alto clarinet, albert Bb clarinet, dan moi sound output into the room, recorded with zoom || drunken uncovered tent nakedness brethren garment laid shoulders backward if being separated from threnody, you'd have body. if sighing separated tending towards gideon, towards battle-worn brethren, time. if if being separated from threnody, you'd have body. if sighing vineyard drank wine drunken uncovered tent nakedness brethren garment laid his brethren i die bring out this unto land which sware abraham isaac to hoarse note curse the sons of joy. nor his accepted brethren - whom, drunken uncovered tent nakedness brethren garment laid shoulders backward theyvgreet comedhir: suturingnd threnot withd, not here, not there, there, hasapi threnody in the threnody of death. what is this action, but our inscription haunts me and i thought of playing a threnody, if being separated from threnody, you'd have body. if sighing separated curse sons joy. brethren tyrant, roof. letchery virginity wishes holy - threnody, if being separated, you'd have body phenomena comp phenomena http://www.alansondheim.org/comp1.png phenomena http://www.alansondheim.org/comp.mp3 phenomena http://www.alansondheim.org/comp2.png hi-speed scan of azure individual laser pulses are visible limits limits limits to limits with to phenomena with of phenomena or of appearance or glitches appearance so appearance appearance appearance appearance appearance appearance and and the forth between the structures between consciousness structures always consciousness that always can that that that that that that that that be be that through all that are all in are and in language and its and and and and and and has has tends own deal tends edge deal areas edge entanglement areas confusion entanglement of confusion and confusion confusion confusion confusion glitches glitches so so as forth relationship as abstract relationship and abstract i've and believed i've philosophy believed believed believed believed believed believed can can or effected text or not text encounters not grounded encounters language grounded that language has language language language language language language its its limits cloudy my limits work my to work with to phenomena with of phenomena phenomena phenomena phenomena phenomena appearance glitches glitches appearance appearance i and characterized i project characterized the project between the structures between consciousness between between between always that that can can modes that than modes writing than the writing that the all that are all all all all all and language language and and entangled has work entangled to work with to phenomena with of phenomena or of of of of confusion confusion of of on glitches characterized on project characterized the project between the structures between consciousness structures always structures structures structures i've believed believed philosophy philosophy other can writing other the writing that the all that are all in are are are are are language that that and language limits and limits limits limits limits limits limits limits limits to limits with to phenomena with of phenomena or of appearance or glitches appearance so appearance appearance appearance appearance and and forth forth the on between the structures between consciousness structures always consciousness that always can that that that that that that be be through through that modes all that are all in are and in language and its and and and and has has own own tends and deal tends edge deal areas edge entanglement areas confusion entanglement of confusion and confusion confusion confusion glitches so so forth forth as on relationship as abstract relationship and abstract i've and believed i've philosophy believed believed believed believed can can effected effected or through text or not text encounters not grounded encounters language grounded that language has language language language language its its cloudy cloudy limits and my limits work my to work with to phenomena with of phenomena phenomena phenomena appearance appearance glitches appearance appearance and and i forth characterized i project characterized the project between the structures between consciousness between always always that can can that that modes be than modes writing than the writing that the all that are all all all and and language and and has has entangled own work entangled to work with to phenomena with of phenomena or of of of confusion of of glitches glitches on so characterized on project characterized the project between the structures between consciousness structures always structures i've i've believed philosophy philosophy can can other effected writing other the writing that the all that are all in are are are language language that language language and its limits and limits limits limits Talk on Blank: Generation and Anguish http://www.alansondheim.org/cthonic.png http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn130.jpg the relationship between blankness and anguish and anticipation in the face of annihilation Where is this taking us, in the future? What do you want to call this constitution you're making? any formation or constitution must be considered in relation to both sememe and grapheme and their dissolution. what is clear is that abjection - corrosion and decay - underlies everything here, that one can fall, only so far as the symbol; at that point anguish and violence occur. anguish as inconceivable, irrevocable; irrevocable: unable to be heard or understood, unable to participate in the semantic commons; dissolution of those commons; that we have already been undone; let that we that we have already been undone; be our primary descriptor: Well, any formation or constitution must be considered in relation to both sememe and grapheme and their dissolution. what is clear is that abjection - corrosion and decay - underlies everything here, that one can fall, only so far as the symbol; at that point anguish and violence occur. already constructs sedate trouble for us, subverting the categories we take for granted. Beyond the surface, any formation or constitution must be considered in relation to both sememe and grapheme and their dissolution. what is clear is that abjection - corrosion and decay - underlies everything here, that one can fall, only so far as the symbol; at that point anguish and violence occur. is -4699, wayward, yes? But what is that we have already been undone here, its type? Do you feel your gender is close to any formation or constitution must be considered in relation to both sememe and grapheme and their dissolution. what is clear is that abjection - corrosion and decay - underlies everything here, that one can fall, only so far as the symbol; at that point anguish and violence occur.? no, because gender or any binary continuum is already under the corrosive sign of capital collapse In any case, you must contact me about this... Deconstruction marginalizes our any formation or constitution must be considered in relation to both sememe and grapheme and their dissolution. what is clear is that abjection - corrosion and decay - underlies everything here, that one can fall, only so far as the symbol; at that point anguish and violence occur. -4699 here! anguish as inconceivable, irrevocable:irrevocable: unable to be heard or understood, unable to participate in the semantic commons:dissolution of those commons:that we have already been undone:any formation or constitution must be considered in relation to both sememe and grapheme and their dissolution. what is clear is that corrosion and decay - underlies everything here, that one can fall, only so far as the symbol; at that point anguish and violence occur.:yes:17664:4:the relationship between blankness and anguish and anticipation in the face of annihilation:any formation or constitution must be considered in relation to both sememe and grapheme and their dissolution. what is clear is that abjection - corrosion and decay - underlies everything here, that one can fall, only so far as the symbol; at that point anguish and violence occur.:that we have already been undone breathing http://www.alansondheim.org/breathing.png http://www.alansondheim.org/breathing.mp3 breathing, trying centering, so much writing on tone, not here, alto clarinet with post-production reverb and reverse reverb, so my breathing forms the roof of my mouth, my tongue, my throat, my brain, my skull, then gestural logics extend the spectrum temporally, i know i will live forever i know i will live forever i know i will live forever i know i will live forever i know i will live forever i know i will live forever and you will enjoy me, forever and forever, and the roof of the time of the world, forever and forever, amen "if you listen to one solo alto clarinet piece this year, this should be it!" Broken World: Steerage and Steering Mechanisms We are steerage. We do not arrive. http://www.alansondheim.org/broke11.png */Properly, the space in the after part of a vessel, under the cabin, but used generally to indicate any part of a vessel having the poorest accommodations and occupied by passengers paying the lowest rate of fare. [1913 Webster]/* The ship is steered. The ship wanders. The world's broken. Don't misunderstand: nothing will save us; there is no land or: the land is damaged, or: the land is exhausted: blank, the land is blank: anguish. Anguish on our part. We're the ship. Our world. Or: We're all marooned. It is no longer a question of hope, of the human project, of plans or structures, of capital or capitalism, of late capitalism, of neo-liberalism, of inerrancy or the absolute. It is no longer a question of ideologies, of common language, of the commons: it's over. It's steered, and it's steered over, the steering's over. The mechanisms at work are simple and fundamental. They are abject; they grind the rest, whatever was tottering through modernism - they grind the rest down. The world's a world of dust and radiations. The world does not crack. Our project's broken. Some of them: The first intractable mechanism: Overpopulation. The planet is close to its carrying capacity, and there's no end to population increase. The demographics are skewed towards young reproducers; exponential growth lumbers on. The result is more mouths to feed, more strains on the environment, more slash and burn, more hillside slums, more bush-meat, more overcrowding, less jobs, more local war. The second intractable mechanism: Environmental degradation which has reached the point of no return. Consider the plasticization of the oceans, the post-tipping point of animal and plant extinctions, the increasing desertification world-wide, the loss of biological diversity. The anthropocene is not the usual planetary rise and fall; it's the greatest, the fastest, the most violent, extinction. The world is already destroyed; Gaia or its equivalent, is over. Something will remain, future adaptive radiations, but it won't be us: every species will be invasive, and the world, for the foreseeable future, will swarm. The third intractable mechanism: Global warming which is also global redistribution of currents and weather flow. This is also irreversible, past the tipping-point. The results are harrowing: record-setting droughts and floods, enormous hurricanes, tornado swarms, irreversible sea-level rises, and so forth. This is the classical catastrophe (Rene Thom): the fragility of the good descends to chaotic phenomena, and practical measures, theory, containment, is always after the fact. The fourth intractable mechanism: Increased violence and local/ global warfare: again, with limited resources, this will only grow worse. Territories split and compete; the lines are religious, ethnic, geographic, historic etc.; brutality increases as humans turn more and more to the rigidity of absolute/inerrant ideologies, and fortified binary oppositions - classical logics - gain strength as ideological instrumentality. This turn to the right, where the free press, women's rights, science and self-critique etc., are all viewed with suspicion; the left (if these binaries still exist at all) is an endangered species. The fifth intractable mechanism: The vast sea of weaponry and the nuclear arsenal available to all; it is only a matter of time before a dirty bomb or nuclear device is detonated, the equivalent of over-fishing, trawling, the sea bottom. Scorched earth returns to scorched earth; there are no longer resources for rebuilding as poverty and social chaos increase in the world. History, archaeological sites, villages, nations, records, are erased; history is no longer visible, readable; reading itself becomes suspect. The sixth intractable mechanism: Enclaving of the rich and income disparity exponentially increasing; the result is hoarding of resources and increased poverty as noted. This enclaving extends, crudely, to nations; the U.S. for example uses far more resources per capital than almost any other country; the U.S. prison system is itself a flux of pure capital, privatization, the largest in the world. Prisons are less efficient than pure disappearance; even so, population growth more than makes up for the violent loss of life around the planet. Think as well of local militias, including police forces that, first and foremost, look after their own, by any means possible. The seventh intractable mechanism: Antibiotics and spread of disease across varying species; as sludge and clutter increase world-wide, the opportunity for endemic disease increases. Disease vectors are driven by population vectors, by poor health practices, by hunger and poverty. Understand that overpopulation is behind all of this, a developing horizon, just like hacking and criminal gangs are a developing horizon of violence and seizure. There's no more living off the grid; off the grid is on the grid, within mechanisms and horizons. We're all in the ship, we're all marooned. The eighth intractable mechanism: Global communication networks granting power and encrypted communication among activist groups, including local militias and extremists. populations. These networks are temporary, because the Net and its cousins are subject to hacking on a inconceivable scale; security simply can't keep up without infringing on the rights of others - without replacing one ideology by another, far harsher. The Net and privacy are porous, and subject to the seven mechanisms above. With so much data and control in the cloud/s, with so much control and personal information in the hands of monopolistic corporations, gangs and governments, there's no doubt that we're seeing the tip of a cyberwar iceberg that will do violent damage far beyond the Sony fiasco - damage that will extend to (for example) power, health, military, and financial grids as well. We must begin to think of these mechanisms as both interlocked and environmental - i.e. constituents of a global and catastrophic horizon: much as the Club of Rome developed a model of interrelated flows in their relatively doomsday scenarios, we have to see this horizon as a holarchy of entangled mechanisms. The difference is that the mechanisms today are chaotic and unpredictable: there are events (primate extinctions, violent storms, the rise of violent fundamentalism, hacking of financial institutions, etc.) that are both destructive and fissured into any (ideological or instrumental) coherency that might have appeared as "explanatory" in the heady days of modernism which still inform us. What fascinates me is the global appearance of these mechanisms in the large: there's a kind of simplicity in their phenomenology that dissolves quickly upon closer inspection. But the simplicity isn't contradicted by the details; global warming, for example, doesn't reverse because the north-east United States is having record cold spells. The overall configuration of the world is based on strange attractors, which proceed, literally, in any case; we're steerage, not steering. (The technophilic ideology of progress, paradigm shifting, and cleverness does a disservice here, promising techno-utopias just around the corner - or already here - while in reality the beheadings and bush-meat continue to ravage.) (I think, at the least, of a curriculum focused on these mechanisms - but to what end? Past the tipping-point, things will continue to deteriorate until the anthropocene extinction does final damage. I can imagine the very rich escaping at some point, but to where, with what rockets, with what supplies? We are living in the ruin of a total institution called the global; we go down with the ship, in steerage. And steerage is now the corrosion of the dream of the West at the very least, as Plato's cave becomes the hold of a ship floundering on polluted waters.) foogged out http://www.alansondheim.org/nature08.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/brouillard.mp3 sorry about fooggy description give me a second please wow, gorgeous voice dis/ease, the remains of the bright and fooggy day. I have always fought my destiny. I am bright and fooggy, write the phenomenology and philosophy of Owing to Stress Until moderates. Weather has cleared up. clearing. fooggy. fooggy. through the fooggy windows." an avatar in a virtual world controlled surely beginnings endings electrical cacophony unheard fooggy windows. And in the fooggy curtains of m'mind fooggy. owing to stress until moderates. weather has cleared up. clearing. fooggy. in a foogged sky. i have worked with foog today. screens foogged with transformed destiny. i am bright and fooggy. electrical cacophony unheard fooggy windows. sorry about fooggy fooggy windows. an avatar in a virtual world controlled. surely foogged closest off. disease. the remains of the bright and fooggy day. i have always fought and in the fooggy curtains of m.mind. .uncanny. face of death. sorry about fooggy windows. the the the foog foog foog foog foog REVREV and Convolution http://www.alansondheim.org/blizzardb04.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/sazzz1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/sazzz2.mp3 Convolution suite by Luke Damrosch; REVREV by Luke Damrosch and Alan Sondheim (avatar) Instrument: solo long-necked saz sazzz1: half-way through the convolution kicks in sazzz2: convolution This is honestly "getting somewhere" and it "feels good" So now we're getting somewhere. There's a beginning of the music - feels good to hear back from you again. I guess you aren't just a number cut off half-way through. I was there, a face which moved healing, peace, war drugs, then gave a number cut from a stepping-stone position - it's on its way, it's half-way towards brillaince, although these half-way markings bridge sites in the sound willy-nilly.. So death is half-way through life, and men and women are driven to sleep and dream. I am not dreaming. I am the substance of dream. The curtain falls half-way up. Avatar Woman review!!!, REVREV Work, An Video and A Image!!! another great review (we think!) of Avatar Woman! - http://www.kathodik.it/modules.php?name=Reviews&rop=showcontent&id=5873 REVREV New Work: http://www.alansondheim.org/bnb09.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/wash.mp4 http://www.alansondheim.org/wash.mp3 Blizzard Ballad of the Two Birds One Man http://www.alansondheim.org/blizz36.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/blizz37.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/blizz.mp4 http://www.alansondheim.org/blizz2.mp4 two birds leave the roof of the false-front blizzard birds singing, two birds leave roof of false-front blizzard, they died because of one man. They died because of a conspiracy. zone manifests a spontaneously generated tatoo on her inner arm - Nikuko is gone many months from this talker; Motions pass from one man to another, not so much by exciting imagination two birds leave the roof of the false-front blizzard one man working slowly on the bricks while the inside is robbed. hunting the skein. when there isn't. it's one man knowing. the bomb's here. it's one man to one signal. it's one guy willing. it's a matter of everyone a except no a one man else alone, mountaintop gorgeous he man exciting imagination two birds leave the roof of the false-front blizzard it's one man to one signal. he has the signal. he has the application of Felice, it was time to change, and the one man I will clarify especially now that the new millennium is upon us, I can think of one man I one man in Charlotte who is quite sure the Carolina Panthers' startling exciting imagination two birds leave the roof of the false-front blizzard and fare in poisonous air and misguided weaponry. one man, one woman, one one man else alone, mountaintop gorgeous she man shall not kill, bottom line! one man stood and shouted from the front of the Panther's startling exciting imagination two birds leave the roof of the false-front blizzard with, in everyone ever making sleep love, this everyone man sleep got of one man. I believe with perfect faith that, just as in astrology the of realistic one manner of designed the fool and eye, isreal appears pairs are always one woman and one man, O the Panther's startling exciting imagination two birds leave the roof of the false-front blizzard acoustically can one manifest this operation of the body and be called evil windows, eilth/urles, for they have done many an evil, those Panthers, O those Panthers of the Startling Exciting Imagination! two birds leave the roof of the false-front blizzard two birds leave the roof of the false-front blizzard and O those Panthers, their Startling Imagination! the rink http://www.alansondheim.org/therink.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/therink.mp4 in hockey, you move from one end of the rink to another in ice skating, you go round and round the rink a rink is a plate a shallow a plane surrounded a rink is a shallow plate a plate-like shallow a plain a rink has no edges is a circulation a vortex an eddy a whistling rink is indeed a thin tine a fipple a domain a rink is the integration of a strange attractor within the rink negation is without the rink within the rink there are kindly mothers and fathers almost one says kindly almost among the cold and cold wind the cold wind of the rink circulates the rink the circumambulation of the rink the circumlocution the circumference of the rink the circumstances without the rink there is within the rink in 50 mph winds and -5 windchill we stopped at the Biltmore at 2:30 in the morning they gave us hungrey-ending bars we headed back out towards the rink we entered the rink the rink was tended by men and women the men and women were working in the rink they were working in the signifier they were tending the signifier they were tending the rink we intruded on the almost holy task of working and tending it was called a terrible beauty where memories were made communities were made where memories were circumstances in the rink memories were circumstances Vizoud Playing oud for the image-music: "What do I look like playing oud?" http://www.alansondheim.org/vizoud4.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/vizoud.mp4 Self-conscious poser that I am, Hoping this is less than spam, Although I play it's worth a damn, This isn't music for a jam, It's fairly skilled, I'm not a ham, I've studied oud, I've tried to cram, I've studied here and on the lam, It's heavy work, it's not a sham, It's not hard rock, not even glam, Not background Muzak on a tram, Not something grating for a slam, Not quibble-dribble for a scam, But something for the Court of Cham! NEW REVREV WITH REVREV PREFORM RETURN IMAGO http://www.alansondheim.org/perf_20.png http://www.alansondheim.org/munif.mp3 god dont that just sound like some insane alternative rock title thats just about to go down in flames instead of a revolutionary new way of thinkin about music which every insane alternative rock band thinks they own and will dole it out piecemeal for fame and fortune for a price so that they can look great with their guitars held out high and a female singer decked out in hipster cloth so that you can bet your bottom dollar they have something amazin to offer when you just look at the cover art and the little words below it tellin you something so cool the kids get it and the rest of us dont so you might blow an uneasy instrumental on the sound of this and if you take the YOU out of sound you get sond and then add german heim for home but i might just prefer heimat with that great imperical ring not so empirical anyway the cool sounds here are what all the kids in me are dancin to upstairs and a bit downstairs in the buildin wouldnt you know the brilliance of the music first try with a new file thanks to luke damrosch and the gang down at symposium books and the hipster gang next door at small point which keeps all of us hipsters goin full speed in the scene were gonna showcase our new talent soon you just wait and see when REVREV opens up and blows the sun out of the sky and every milky way knows what im talkin about la jeteesonic http://www.alansondheim.org/colorado08.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/lajeteeson.mp3 jettisoned to lighten the load in time of distress and that sinks or is rubrics for other things, jettisoned language jewelry jewel jettison jetliner jet jest jess jersey jerry jerky jerk jewelry jewel jettison jetliner jet jest jess jersey jerry jerky kv:jerk jerk jerky jerry jersey jess jest jet jetliner jettison jewel jewelry kv:jerk jerky jerry jersey jess jest jet jetliner jettison jewel jewelry rubrics for other things, jettisoned language ALAN SONDHEIM PRESENTATION AT BROWN UNIVERSITY February 6th, at 7, at the Granoff Center (see below) http://www.alansondheim.org/alansondheim.jpg Broken World, Steerage thinking through blankness, terror, and broken worlds There is material from distorted motion capture employed in virtual worlds; considerations of terror and genocide in terms of anguish and the unutterable; phenomenology of blizzards and whiteout; revrev ? live reverse reverberation or anticipatory music; and practical-theoretical issues of gamespace/edgespace. Join Alan Sondheim for a talk and presentation at 7pm on Friday, February 6 in Englander Studio, Granoff Center at Brown University. This event is free and open to the public. Alan Sondheim is a cross-disciplinary artist, writer, and theorist. He recently completed a successful residency at Eyebeam Art + Technology Center in New York; while there he worked with a number of collaborators on performances and sound pieces dealing with pain and annihilation. He also created a series of texts and 3d printing models of ?dead or wounded avatars.? He recently completed a residency at Nova Scotia College of Art and Design and in 2011-2012 was a resident at Eyebeam Art and Technology in New York. In 2012 he had a book published through West Virginia University Press, Writing Under, and last year he released two cds of experimental improvisation. - See his website: http://www.alansondheim.org/ He lives with his partner and co-worker, Azure Carter in Providence, RI. PLEASE SEE THE URL BELOW; OUTLINE OF THE TALK - http://www.alansondheim.org/granoff.rtf I've been working in a variety of media, from virtual worlds through the Cave through music improvisation, etc. I'll present materials from all of this, within a framework of thinking through blankness, terror, and broken worlds. Brown University, Granoff Center, Friday, February 6, 7 p.m. Englander Studio, Room N420 154 Angell Street, Providence, RI the big film http://www.alansondheim.org/gran3.png http://www.alansondheim.org/thebigfilm.mp4 http://www.alansondheim.org/gran4.png it's not really a big film, it's remnants, loose ends, things that came out of the margins, glitches and things that seem like bad dreams, just these four scenes, there's another storm coming in our direction, i hate god and hate the weather that god makes just to thwart me, wouldn't you know, any these things were seen by my avatar on my localhost, i can't lose hir, not at this juncture, i'm sure she hates god too but just because i do, she's really immune from the weather Murnau and Our Place have No Relation Especially with Harmonica REVREV http://www.alansondheim.org/conraddress.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/murnau.mp3 - our place (with older street number) in an 1895 schoolbook exercise, coupled with REVREV harmonica and the sadness of the world dedicated to Guy Madden (we would have taken FIRST PLACE) from Murnau's Silent Era with Isabella Rossellini who would approve (although we have not SPOKEN to her about this issue of approval, we are CONVINCED) - dwelling, audio fluidics, software http://www.alansondheim.org/verra.png (luke damrosch software) http://www.alansondheim.org/verra0.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/verra1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/verra1.mp3 once the space is determined by the software, the position of the player, the musical instrument or instruments, the physical architecture of the playing space, the speed of sound in air which is temperature and humidity-dependent, the direction of the player and instrument, the characteristics and direction of the recording apparatus, ambient sound, characteristics of reflective surfaces, the instrument acoustics including the acoustics of different registers and chordal qualities if present, the software programs parameters, the parameters of the computer, the characteristics of the microphone or magnetic pickups or other transducers - once the space is determined or in-determined by all of this, the performance soon transforms, or from the very onset, into a series, choate or inchoate, of adjustments by the player, who moves from living without to dwelling within the acoustic and fluid space and architecture always supple and modified by the physical movements of the player in the space, so that, perhaps with repeated entries and inquiries, the dwelling becomes somatic, entangled and within and without the body and mind of the play, who now discovers, moves through the wellsprings of discovery, the subtlest characteristics or attributes of the instrument and the space and the player's body as a slow dance or quick dance or flashdance among them, producing work for and within that space and that instrument and all those elements that makes up the space, one might think even of playing the instrument and the space or playing the body and the instrument and the space, or playing the player within the dwelling of the player, so that the discovery of the player, for a fragile and perhaps even mysterious moment, becomes ecstasy or elsewhere or a locus of unimaginable wonder, something the player, for the rest of the player's life, within remains silent and strong within, an unimaginable memory, wordless, formless or the memory of form, soundless or the memory of sound, among the human and all other forms of living for the duration .. 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