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There are thoughts of my aging, of dying, of leaving Azure behind (which is the worst); there are memories salvaged from my high-school years, or Soho years in the 70s; memories as well of Nova Scotia, California, driving cross- country, on and on. I try to avoid these, then there are memories of my parents, or growing up in the home in Kingston, Pennsylvania, or further memories of my daughter and our broken relationship. I try to avoid these. Then there are violent feelings of regret, feelings of loss with friends who have died, feelings of abject loneliness (living in Rhode Island), feelings of abandonment (so many of our friends are in NY or out West), feelings of self-pity, of a life badly lived, of work which will disappear when I die. When I count breaths, thoughts intrude; my mind refuses to leave me alone, my mind splits, one part begs the other, it's no use. The bad thoughts are there and will remain until I rise, think of other things. I worry whether or not I'll see my friends again, whether I'll be able to visit my brother's or sister's families, whether I'll be able to work again, even for a pittance, just for community, just to be part of something. I worry about leaving things unsaid, unfinished, I try to avoid such things. I want to think of other things. I think of getting up to avoid such things, it's in the middle of the night, should I take trazodone and more melatonin, should I read or rise for the moment, work on a project, do grunt work, will that get me back to sleep. I worry that my depression will last the rest of my life and contaminate everyone around me, that I'll have a stroke, that I'll be incapacitated, that I will no longer be able to play music. My mind wanders back to childhood, to promises of forthcoming books that will remain stillborn, to recordings I'd like to do, choreography and video and sound I'd want to work on with Foofwa or other dancers, music I'd like to play with Stephen, I worry about car accidents and growing increasingly despondent over the 'world situation.' I try to avoid reading about pain and suffering and death, my reading incapacitates, haunts me in the middle of the night, I shudder in horror over pain and death imagined. My bad thoughts include dying before I want to die, I never want to, I think all the time of suicide as a way of avoiding bad thoughts, I'd never kill myself. I think of pets I've had, of moments driving through the Appalachians, of listening to Scottish music in Nova Scotia, of playing on the banks of the Seine in Paris, about failing to become a scientist, of disappointing everyone who was sure I'd have a stellar career in art or music or literature, of constantly disappointing my father, who said to me recently in a dream, 'you've always been annoying.' Everywhere I turn there are thick curtains, dark ones, behind them there's nothing, not even more of them, the curtains murmur the onslaught of emptiness. I think of missed opportunities, never learning Japanese, never visiting China, no more gallery shows, no more university affiliations. I think of friends who have been cast adrift as well, everyone dealing with misery, depression, death, of friends and relatives, of their own illnesses. I think of the return of slavery by violent states, war and torture everywhere, the darkness setting over humanity. I attempt to wake, I lie in bed sometimes for hours with these thoughts, I can't banish them, sooner or later I get up, work for a bit, exhaust myself, collapse back into deep sleep for a half hour to two hours at a time, wake, practice music, and that may be my day. I think about the phenomenology of anguish, of the state of being bereft, of the imperturbability of time, of the world closing down for me. I think of Azure, I turn towards her, cuddle, I prepare myself for the day, I struggle, dawn has not yet struck its discordance, I wake, I get up, I move. I approach the day. Algorithm of Sleeplessness http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn057.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn014.jpg 4% dream of an insomniac song if uoy real love me 3 Causing sleeplessness . ... .. ib. 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Enjoy. softly http://www.alansondheim.org/softly.png http://www.alansondheim.org/softly1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/softly2.mp3 soft and gently falls the rain where there's no violence there's no gain where there's no heaven there's no pain soft and gently falls the rain soft and gently falls the snow what lives in heaven lives below what thrives in dying thrives below soft and gently falls the snow soft and gently falls the rain soft and gently falls the snow New Year's Naked Zither http://www.alansondheim.org/nakedzither.png http://www.alansondheim.org/nakedzither.mp3 just the sound, no images, no reverberation, no echo, no reverse echo, no amplitude normalization, no filter, no words, no reversals, no accompaniment, just playing across fingerboard and open strings simultaneously, just the heights and depths of the 19th-century instrument welcoming in the New Year, getting rid of the Old before it slaughters all of us! http://www.alansondheim.org/yearzero.jpg year zero my childhood http://www.alansondheim.org/childhood.jpg childhood home... (alan) childhood ignorance my childhood untouchable place . . place childhood. . . childhood. tonight. . four winds press, 1970. an amazing collection, childhood but kindergarten, earlier? 1950 all through childhood take weekly saturday formed from childhood. he knew the sphere of stars and its awkwardness, ahead invisible 1950 all through childhood take weekly saturday allergy for reasons going back to childhood, fear, depression, regret, guilt, i 1.shadows of the bed where i slept in my childhood, 1950 all through childhood i had to take weekly saturday allergy shots; i most died in childhood and most died in poverty everything from my childhood as well. i was in halifax at the books, including my childhood notebooks and other things stored there. in ing back towards childhood, but detouring the physiological: childhood. tonight, its conical top is lit with lights, a sign of its childhood dream, walking down a wooden pier of some sort, looking left and possible. i would dream like this, reminiscent of childhood fantasizing, ask them to email alan with deepest darkest sex and childhood tales! exhibitionists. the childhood experiences on which voyeurs are fixated operating out of fantasy/theory/childhood/spasm (almost all of which lost confidence, inhibitions, my first childhood, the habit of expecting yes, i hunger for you, nikuko. i always have. and your childhood sent you i could only go back, not to childhood, but to the smell of the sand or childhood and someone's hair may have turned white - and someone's got i had a happy childhood between the ages of 20 and 33, and then it was childhood on, i have been effectively displaced, returning to sites of short dreams i have rummaging around childhood or sexuality or unknown at home. if home is where the heart is, it travels with me, childhood and my childhood house in kingston, medicine bottles spilling out of racks, the edenic trope is one of childhood, naivete, goodness, lack of conflict, locomotive. precise constituting language. reproducing childhood. faintest us! you." jacques. made mistakes. childhood leader. _here_ wounded childhood. nikki gave me a big kiss and childhood was over. from childhood which might have held the clue i have been looking for in a the bubbles, the more memory of childhood, a day, for example, on a when i 'remember' my childhood home (alan) bachelor thinks much. nostalgia childhood, decrepit rundown neighborhood. in the music of schumann) extracts childhood memories so as to embody a childhood, to promises of forthcoming books that will remain is it because of some problems in your childhood that you say jennifer experience of pornography on the net. "no discomfort with the childhood our childhood is our command. jeanne, answers below, out. write ,early childhood ed , ification as if he played the 'ancient tunes' remembered 'from his childhood.' ever reasons - psychological constitution, social structure, childhood and all those rich rooms and intense childhood scenes we shall never and now, i see the computer reproducing the secret writing of childhood. tonality which has stabilized from childhood on now remains in a relative her dreams, which surely on occasion reached back to childhood, were about repose of childhood, surrounded by no ill-favored men whose powerful aid jagged terrain of the moon miranda, his childhood home, the molecular wonderfully presented, and the spectacle, seen from early childhood on. the _ludic_ in this space, space of violated childhood dreaming which music. my mind wanders back to childhood, to promises of forthcoming books through my father, who i didn't know, feared, and, after childhood, tried my father and with him my childhood security tiffany starts her wonderful book with an account of her early childhood to me; i wrote your childhood as well. did you have a home? zen trap http://www.alansondheim.org/zentrap5.png http://www.alansondheim.org/zentrap.mp4 http://www.alansondheim.org/zentrap2.png http://www.alansondheim.org/zentrap3.png http://www.alansondheim.org/zentrap4.png http://www.alansondheim.org/zentrap1.png just a bloody old video game with enlightenment nowhere to be found, you can't get to heaven swallowing the sea. so there's someone meandering somewhere, the generation stage left far behind, there's no generation stage, no completion stage, you've seen this all before, i've made this over and over again, these graphics illustrating "the stain of the ten oxherding pictures" that chatter and chant like crazy, there's always sex in the picture, even for the old man mad about panting, woomp woomp woomp, no winning no losing, wander and wonder, chatter and chant, woomp woomp woomp, what separates my work from itself is the sheer pretension i surround myself with, take a journey in my world, you'll drown, Invisibility http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn016.jpg Invisibility is the problem of our time, but there are so many! Most of our collapsing phenomenologies center on attention economies, acceleration, dromodology; these are epistemological problems, what might be examined, what should be examined, and the process of examination itself. But invisibility is more perverse; it is an issue of ontology, of disappearance, from within and without, a problem which not only robs us of our situation, our habitus, but also invades the discourse of the body and the self. It can be a sudden transformation, occurring at the edge of the possible, the refugee, the unmanned migrant ship floundering and heading for unknown shores; it may also be a slow and almost imperceptible withdrawal from being, to the extent that being exists as instrumental. Age is one index of invisibility, and this I experience: whatever I do increasingly makes no difference whatsoever, as long as it is with the bounds of the law. Making a difference, making a distinction, is fundamentally a communal and social act; when it no longer matters, helplessness ensues - not the helplessness of a lack of knowledge or tools (but that too), but the helplessness of the collapse of speech acts or being. The aging body is a refugee body, and what might have passed for wisdom is no longer given an audience, but is transformed into some thing swept aside within another register altogether. All of this occurs within a rigidity of etiquette which is not acknowledged, but which creates an iron and exclusionary ontology. Too many people I know, for a variety of reasons (political, age, class, religion or lack of it) feel marooned, a marooning which answers to no shore, no boundary. The issue is one of consequences, which at one point in our social evolutions might have been the concern of cause and effect, but now operates within the regime of effacement (what I have to say is of no consequence, because I am not speaking - a Lyotardian differend which operates across innumerable strata within broken models of being and the world). Engagement is not a projection, not what 'makes us human'; it is, of course, a skein, and one now driven by fast- forward feedback, ranging from high-speed stock manipulation to high speed online text-and-image feeds that leave no time for reflection, but, more importantly, no need for reflection as well. The horizon of all of this is the fracturing of steering problems which dissolve in rhetoric and shifting positions; the problems, however, remain and increase in urgency. Behind them is an increasingly devastated planet with extinctions and population out of control, existing within the immediacy of the digital and its potential for internal transformation (a change of pixel for pixel, for example), for epistemological slide. ... For all of these reasons, these flows, invisibility tends towards pharmacology and depression, towards despair and violence, towards the inerrancy of fundamental religion and a rigidity of logics and taxonomies between believers and non- believers. It is easy to conclude from all of this that 'we are all invisible' or some such, but in fact, the presence of belief and violence point elsewhere, towards a sweeping-aside of the ephemeral and the harnessing of the digital for a strict rhetoric of communications. For those of us who can neither ascribe to this, nor participate (by virtue of the problematic 'essences' of age, gender, sexual orientation, religion, nationality, etc. etc. (all these categories left over from an age of classical modernism and post-colonialism)), nothing is left, and this nothingness leads nowhere to enlightenment, but to those invisibilities which are always hammered into position by others, but which always resist positionality as well; this is the state of marooning, defined by the receding of that instrumental past which at one point, close by, has seemed to be heritage, but in fact was a social construct - the social construct of time which, fast-forward, takes no time at all. It is not that this too shall pass, but that this too has always already passed, and where once the I-(pod) might have been, there shall no longer be absence, but an absence of absence, mute, ontological, nowhere and everywhere at all. There is no answer because there is no time, and no evolution of our, or any other species; there is only the time of slow cessation, on this and other worlds, and the endpoint of invisibility is this - that one is invisible because there is nothing to be seen. This is no longer brilliant weather, but fabrication bending under the weight of its own collapse, as popular culture demonstrates over and over again, and we all succumb to its charms, just as news, here in Providence, flails out with the slogan 'news you can trust,' and advertisements hawk replacements and necessities with the slogan 'just for you.' No one drives these, no one receives them; events as well are marooned always already some- where else, to someone else, to the displacement of populations, from nothing to nothing. (Of course there is the trope that 'this essay, too, is invisible,' but how would one know, and where is one? And immediately that one can see tendency towards that absolutism that also participates in the annihilation of the world, as if that were not an occurrence. What is foregone, is foregone by virtue of invisibility; what is present, is unaccountable, uncountable, and unaccounted-for. Such are the shoals of ontology, such is the unseen, within and without the parenthetical.) http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn011.jpg Invisibility, continued http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn140.jpg The hallmark of invisibility: There is no hallmark of invisibility. Wait, isn't that a hallmark? No it's a sentence and a sentence isn't a hallmark - From Wikipedia: "No it's a sentence and a sentence isn't a hallmark." I read on Facebook invisibility isn't possible. But I read a brilliant essay on invisibility on Facebook called "Invisibility" and I don't think it's disappeared yet. It's disappeared from my feed. You can always look at Alan Sondheim's Timeline and you'll find it. Are you sure he hasn't be banned yet? He's been banned from YouTube. It was there last time I saw it. It was a hallmark analysis of the phenomenon of invisibility in and around the digital. It will never reach its intended target, invisibility extends itself, it does this by doing nothing. So there is no intentionality associated with it, no object of consciousness? None that matters, it has no qualities, no parameters, no structure, writing has been quite an exercise, I wouldn't call it pointless, but its exactitude is meaningless to anyone but the writer. A couple of people have called it a rant. Invisibility itself is a rant, but the author would rather consider the essay an analysis, at least for his own peace of mind; there was something about the act of writing that motivated him, as the words disappeared down the long tunnel of obsessive thinking. He said he could almost picture the world receding from him in a kind of foreshortened perspective bereft of affect. Exactly, he had to picture something in order to keep on going, no was else was encouraging or reading him, no one else was around. None of those mythical fireside evenings. None at all, not so he noticed. http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn152.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/invis.txt Flagtree Qin http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn124.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/flagtree1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/flagtree2.mp3 wild qin from tuning through stream and silence flagtree flagtree firry.v fishcove.p flagpain.v flagtree.v flesh.p flesh.p flicked_.p pine, mountain, chasm, stream, wind, crag, cliff, crane R.H. Van Gulik, Hsi K'ang and his Poetical Essay on the Lute R.H. Van Gulik, Lore of the Chinese Lute, The: An Essay on the Ideology of the Ch'in [guqin] Mockingbird Syntax and a Few Phonemes http://www.alansondheim.org/irene07.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/mocking.mp3 Mockingbird on the alto clarinet. The alto clarinet is suddenly pretty and with the sound of the forest or some trees where the mockingbird might be. It's been a depressing few days so this is somewhat cheering. But it's only sound, thin as the air itself. Still... (use earphones if you can) (Ed, what do you think of the piece?) daleth, door http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth7.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth1.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth2.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth3.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth4.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth5.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth6.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth8.jpg openings, music by alto clarinet, toy keyboard our leaf collection, our alto clarinet, our new table for the qin (resonant glass top) leaves from all over, qin from Stephen Dydo, qin table from lobby in our building, alto clarinet by Selmer Bundy Glass Qin http://www.alansondheim.org/daleth1.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/glassqin1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/glassqin2.mp3 two qin pieces, one on the modern, the other on the Qing qin, played on the glass table. the angle and sonic quality of the table in allegiance with the 1850s chair create an environment for experimentation otherwise impossible, allowing for a wilder dwelling against the grain. the sound is exact; the bodies of the instruments add their own buzzes and creaks, the sound and tensor of wood dwelling within itself. Mathematics http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn054.jpg "To summarize, I would use the words of Jeans, who said that 'the Great Architect seems to be a mathematician'. To those who do not know mathematics it is difficult to get across a real feeling as to the beauty, the deepest beauty, of nature. C.P. Snow talked about two cultures. I really think that those two cultures separate people who have and people who have not had this experience of understanding mathematics well enough to appreciate nature once. It is too bad that it has to be mathematics, and that mathematics is hard for some people. It is reputed - I do not know if it is true - that when one of the kings was trying to learn geometry from Euclid he complained that it was difficult. And Euclid said, 'There is no royal road to geometry'. And there _is_ no royal road. Physicists cannot make a conversion to any other language. If you want to learn about nature, to appreciate nature, it is necessary to understand the language that she speaks in. She offers her information only in one form; we are not so unhumble as to demand that she change before we pay any attention. All the intellectual arguments that you can make will not communicate to deaf ears what the experience of music really is. In the same way all the intellectual arguments in the world will not convey an understanding of nature to those of 'the other culture'. Philosophers may try to teach you by telling you qualitatively about nature. I am trying to describe her. But it is not getting across because it is impossible. Perhaps it is because their horizons are limited in this way that some people are able to imagine that the centre of the universe is man." Richard Feynman, The Character of Physical Law, p. 58 /pronoun gender noted/ both and neither http://www.alansondheim.org/bothboth.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/bothboth.mp3 neti neti neither this nor that neither this one nor that one not both this one and that one not both this one or that one not both neither this one nor that one not both not this one nor that one not both this one or that one neither Aural Anticipatory Architecture http://www.alansondheim.org/varied04.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/agni1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/agni2.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/agni3.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/agni4.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/agni5.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/agni6.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/agni0.mp3 Thanks to Luke Damrosch's SuperCollider programming, we have a proof of concept structure for apparent reversed reverberation and accompanying sonic architecture. We constantly changed parameters and the resulting seven pieces are a good beginning (as well as interesting music in themselves). Later I added natural harmonic harmonica as agni0. Other instrumentation included voice (Azure Carter), Tibetan cymbals and madal (Luke Damrosch), alto saxophone and toy keyboard (Alan Sondheim). In terms of improvisation, the environment is a unique and supple aural dwelling creating a different playing experience than the usual acoustic or electronic-acoustic setup. Luke will be working on equalization, pitch changes, etc., and I hope to create a multi-speaker/channel configuration that will appear overall to distort temporal perception, as if sound were rising out of thin air, in a state of continual enunciation. We used the laptop microphone, and output into a small Fender instrument amp; all the components in the playing-space were too close to prevent feedback. If things go well, we're present this at the Interrupt festival at the Brown University Cave in March. Enjoy! (Thanks greatly to Luke and Azure of course!) fact, it seems to me there's no way out of here http://www.alansondheim.org/radio092.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/seemstome2.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/seemstome.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/fact.mp3 It seems to me that the U -> R collapse of the wave equation in the Alan says, "Dria, well then it seems to me that one doesn't need For some people, it seems to me, there appear to be real absences in their And it seems to me that working with avatars, which can be as much a Alan says, "Dria, well then it seems to me that one doesn't need much of my name is nikuko. you have asked m. it seems to me that t. it seems to me ^ :it seems to me that voyeurism is not about sex but about knowledge and '((i believe) (i think) (i have a feeling) (it seems to me that) that too sweet, irresolute... acros. it seems to me that this divide i my name is nikuko. you have asked m. it seems to me that t. it seems to me places,_ because they _get me out of here._ When you bite my breast, draw such constitution. But then, if I would say get me out of here, would I --/ want to pay someone, 'get me out of here' ---/ of less language// get me out of this, you don't// fact. bowings http://www.alansondheim.org/steam04.jpg steam-up/ http://www.alansondheim.org/bowings1.mp3 viola/ http://www.alansondheim.org/bowings2.mp3 alto clarinet/ http://www.alansondheim.org/bowings1.mp3 voice, ukulele/ azure c., voice, uke,, alan s., viola, alto clarinet seconds,sonic,architecture,live,supercollider,,improvisation interrupt the bowing... interrupt the bowing... proceedeth bad bowing jewels raiment precious tarried few least hinder gaijins are very awkward at bowing. how easy it would have been towards accolade! carlyle's bowing figures in proceedeth bad bowing jewels raiment precious tarried few least hinder interrupt the bowing... however i wasn t bowing my head and expressing gratitude to the calvinist different bowing techniques are used in combination with grace-notes, harmonics, hammering and pulling, and occasional bowing of the drone thinking through the phenomenology of bowing, processed, proceedeth bad bowing jewels raiment precious tarried few least bad bowing jewels raiment precious tarried few least hinder handmaids bowing or bowing, bowing down, playing music, doubled tautness: already back and forth and playing (bowing, ponytail, viola bow, swingings, the first piece is learning a different bowing/fingering technique. might be heard, not too close to the give and take of bowing, the proper was difficult bowing; echo and heavy hiss reduction was added. the bow is supplication. hence the double-meaning of bowing - the sarangi, sarangi, sarinda, and violin. i found bowing of it begs for proper tuning, brilliant bowing, some of cura cumbus bowing and bow lifts oh i love this example, over- or under-hand bowing, not to mention the like a goddess, like an arched vector, like a bow, like a bowing, flamenco and pipa. bowing is a relaxation; the fingers do little when bowing, not when using my fingers, my body sweats. it resistive. bowing is always changing, it is the arm and wrist advantage, to the best position of the bow. in both bowing and backwards and forwards bowing and furious arpeggios. i must best i've ever seen, and his bowing, magical. interrupt the bowing... Opening, Aural Architectures http://www.alansondheim.org/ns16.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/qinrev1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/qinrev2.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/curarev.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/shakrev.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/shakrev2.mp3 Qin and shakuhachi, 2 pieces each w/varied parameters; cura, 1 piece Playing in these environments (currently limited to 2 channel) is a completely different experience - not because of delay, but because of anticipation and spatial perception. For me, the pieces are unique and calming in the midst of Sturm und Drang; I hear and play the sirens of France, the guqin by a mountain stream, shakuhachi of outer Zen outside Zen. Qin and shakuhachi are difficult, sounding of breath and hands, strings and bamboo, streets of ice, Special Forces, screams, and serenity. Rise up, mourn, meditate, and enjoy. The Canyon Film Catalog / missing history http://www.alansondheim.org/canyonfilm1.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/canyonfilm2.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/canyonfilm3.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/canyonfilm4.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/canyonfilm5.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/canyonfilm6.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/canyonfilm7.jpg These films are probably still in the Filmmakers Coop; I haven't heard from them, so I have no idea if they've been shown. I think not, but at least one was shown (I received a catalog from another organization), and I wasn't informed. For those who might be interested, these are master prints - I showed masters only, I didn't have money for duplication - which Canyon in S.F. took on. They then changed their policy (for legal reasons I gathered) and the films were returned. Now they decay at the Coop, nothing is done with them - but if you want an idea of their contents, read away on the seven sad jpgs. Most of these are 16mm sound films, but there are 8mm and super8mm as well. Why put these jpgs up? So that this minor history isn't totally lost, so that someone might find value in the films, so that they might even be restored or archived (hopefully they're still there) - and because I just found the catalog shots, going through other archives of my own. Years ago, Kathy Acker and I made the Blue Tape and a parody of the Blue Tape. The parody has disappeared; I imagine it's somewhere in my archives at NYU Fales, or University of Ohio in Columbus. It sits and decays. The current Acker revival places the Blue Tape at a center; it's been the subject of PhD theses and random shows. No one wants to see my other video or film from that period; I exist as her appendage, as a diacritical mark of no consequence. The last show of the Blue Tape was in Brooklyn; I asked the curator if he would be interested in seeing my other work, and there was no reply. Among the other pieces, a 2000 mph. super8mm film made while driving alone and non-stop from Dallas to Los Angeles, the camera aimed out the windshield, film and batteries changed on the fly. A 16mm hour-long sound film called Hollywood, about just that; I flew in Jocelyn Doray from Montreal to star in it. A 16mm 11 minute silent film shooting down the Sunset Strip, waiting for something to happen, and something did. Film shot at murder scenes and in burning buildings. Hour-long films such as Sleazy and the Year 3000, shorter films such as Nuclear Winter, sexualized films, narrative films like God, films made with slit-scan techniques picked up from 2001: A Space Odyssey, films dealing with male and female nudity, early conceptual 8mm films, anti-Vietnam War films based on found North Vietnamese found footage of napalm bombing, films made in New York, Rhode Island, Montreal, Los Angeles, where I made a 16mm film a week for a year, all of them numbered, most sound and edited in-camera, in length from three minutes to an hour. So many sound-tracks were magnetic-striped, probably all lost due to print-through and flaking, so many splices were taped, probably yellow and brittled, and the sprocket holes themselves probably chatter uncontrollably in the projector. I haven't seen the films in years myself, perhaps they're discarded, or overheated, curled, perhaps the cans are rusted. For a long time they were shown at Millennium in New York, thanks to Howard Guttenplan, but the film community never came, there was no buildup of interest, I wrote a few articles on them that were published, but I wasn't part of the movement, I went to their films, I knew them, there was talk of a twenty-four hour showing of my work, of a curated night or nights, nothing came of anything. I imagine the color stock slowly reddening, imagine fingerprints burned in, maybe they've been stolen, what remains are these pages, I think maybe a few video conversions, I'm not sure, just as the EIAJ videos I made, including the Acker ones but so many more, are hopelessly chemically decaying, sticking together, they can only play once, NYU Fales hasn't been interested in reviving them, it costs too much, maybe another twenty hours there, I'm not sure. Now I make my little videos and put them up, YouTube has banned me without recourse or due process thanks to Google, perhaps four or five people watch them, they show at various places, but there's still no community. The earlier films go back as far as 1977 at least, and up through the early 1990s, and they're different from my current work, they were also different from other work back then, all that in-camera editing, fast processing, master- showing, broken narratives, sound-sync and pseudo sound-sync, wild theory, and no homage to or lineage from the male heroes of avant-garde cinema at the time, I don't think I ever showed at Anthology for example and couldn't understand Brakhage's appeal and structural cinema bored me. Tony Conrad brought me out to Hallwalls and mocked my work, there was no audience. I showed at MOMA and in two Whitney Biennials and thought I was getting somewhere. It just stopped. At different times I showed all over the country. I never got a film grant and couldn't continue. I improvised all sorts of optical arrays for production. Later I did the same with 3/4" tape and went back and used Beta as well and all that stuff's disappeared. I think the originals are at NYU Fales but there are a lot also in Ohio. Tim Murray at Cornell has about two terabytes of my video archives, but I've written him several times about updating them (at least another terabyte at this point), and he's never written back. I'm afraid all my work, digital, analog, and physical, will eventually be discarded, I'm not that important, at NYU and Ohio, there are boxes and boxes, what's online like this text will disappear after I die, obviously, I keep taking things down on the alansondheim site because there's limited space, it's a site I have to pay for, it's difficult to do, so those files will be gone. What's left will be the Acker tape somewhere and maybe those anthologies I made years ago because really important people are in them, I have a good eye. But as for the videos and music and films, and the films listed in the jpgs above, I don't know, realistically they're probably still at the Coop, corroded and split, sooner or later they'll be discarded as well. At least I had a chance to make them, and wonder at their beauty and intensity, and that's most likely the end of them, of it all, of my work. If you're not canonic, if your genre slips, your work is stillborn, here's the catalog, or at least its imaginary, I dream the presence of these films, I dream your presence, I dream the screen illuminated, I dream the screen itself, your presence, the image, the sound. threnody http://www.alansondheim.org/coldbone1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/coldbone2.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/coldbone3.mp3 where are evelyn and norman now where are weiss and sondheim in the ground in the cold cold ground do they talk to one another do they talk to one another then their backs are to each other now in the ground in the cold cold ground are they yet together are they yet together then they are apart forever now in the ground in the cold cold ground what do you say to them what do you say to them now i'd say you're forever joined apart i'd say you're back to back forever in the ground in the cold cold ground i'd say no prayer nor cry would aid no book nor journey turned to dust forever joined no voice nor name forever silent forever bone in the ground in the cold cold ground you're forever joined apart in the ground in the cold cold ground wildness in dying and creation http://www.alansondheim.org/sonific2.png http://www.alansondheim.org/sonific.mp4 http://www.alansondheim.org/sonific1.png sonification space in the virtual mashup dance in aural space, echo without diminution (tails) tails leave memento, forget-me-nots without diminution, avatars; with tails, history i woke shuddering thinking of friends dying and dead shaking so many warm families nearby their relatives i am stony and cold azure keeps me alive and warm the violence of creation collapses the dying world the dying world leaves no trail; nothing does history is the tail of regency; historiography, autopsy two nights ago we saved a small spider it was in the hallway; now hopefully in our plantworld everything indoors; the violence of the frigid day farmland http://www.alansondheim.org/farmland4.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/farmland1.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/farmland2.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/farmland3.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/farmland5.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/farmland6.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/farmland7.jpg reproduction, birthing, intellectual property, farmlands reproduction, birthing, intellectual property, farmlands orchestron http://www.alansondheim.org/orchestron.png http://www.alansondheim.org/orchestron.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/orchestron2.mp3 earphones, no surprises, eyes closed, breathing slowly, counting n-flats of the cube, 8/0, 12/1, 6/2, 1/3 over and over again, until the vision comes, eyes closed, of the cube, no surprises, of the measure polytope of dimension four, slowly counting, eyes closed, earphones, no surprises, of the measure polytope of dimension five, earphones, slowly counting, no surprises, eyes closed, eyes wide open, 2 different growths http://www.alansondheim.org/growths.png http://www.alansondheim.org/growths.mp4 Scooped http://www.alansondheim.org/scooped.bmp http://www.alansondheim.org/scooped.mp4 http://www.alansondheim.org/scooped.mp3 I can be led to runes, I can scoop them up. A very large pelican scoops bree up in its enormous beak and flies off - puddles! tea scoop chashaku grooved scoop: technical imminent tendrils, tea the scoop node chashaku then broken into at grooved towards scoop, the then scoop! into tea grooved scoop towards chashaku scoop! at from rend rive scoop scrapscrunch scruple shard shred shatter shaving shiver and yes, I can be led to runes! I can scoop them up! albert system http://www.alansondheim.org/ibelieve4.png http://www.alansondheim.org/arabesque.mp3 albert system clarinet with reverse reverbration software, various versions including 2.1.1, all by luke damrosch, some parameter tweaking by me are rows of protocols in the garden, arabesques... firmament bleeds, arabesque designs of the essence of luminous seasons of the artist tracing his arabesque in infinite matter amplifies, but i reread this, Nikuko says, and "there's no gap," it's bleak orientalism, romanticisms, orientalisms, fantastic accounts, dialogs, everything, australia, africa, where are you, asia you are my fond asia, orientalism later fury http://www.alansondheim.org/cookin02.png http://www.alansondheim.org/laterfury.mp3 open your mouth... ah... speak... speak... alan, what do they call you, when they call you... call me wanderer, call me desecrated, call me vagabond, call me fury are you dressed as call me wanderer, call me desecrated, call me vagabond, call me fury? is call me wanderer, call me desecrated, call me vagabond, call me fury dressed as you? are you in your womb, are you in your flesh, ah don't answer... ah... is alan wearing your ... , are you wearing your armor? i'm wearing nothing i'm wearing grenade i'm wearing bomb i'm wearing bullet i'm wearing armor of righteousness i love your feelings, call me wanderer, call me desecrated, call me vagabond, call me fury ... your womb mixes me throughout your armor! what do you call your thrusting armor? bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text call me wanderer, call me desecrated, call me vagabond, call me fury, bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text opens me totally to you! arm gone leg gone head cut cock cut breast cut throat cut arms cut off legs cut off my arm gone is yours... bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text makes me thoughtful -2797 times! bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text calls forth manic your makeup, eating, excreting memory. throughout the pure, bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text is , pure, i'm wearing nothing i'm wearing grenade i'm wearing bomb i'm wearing bullet i'm wearing armor of righteousness? ... your makeup is arms cut off legs cut off here, it's your makeup? are you becoming close to alan's bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text? yes ah, a wet and lovely fantasy, you melt into alan's skin forever... for so many days, i have been sedate alan ... and it has taken you just seconds minutes turning armor ... state of my mid which obsesses aboyout deatgh byout h=jyoust not now, now :it's a new file, it's where thig=ngs are going to happen in spite of the ::that, this locationj is closed, it won't be remembered, not a bit at all, : your soiled and happen here and it is a location which won't be remembered, she said is in my catatonic nothing's there of alan's gone somewhere else your womb seeps into my nothing's there of alan's gone somewhere else - turning me alan-alan state of my mid which obsesses aboyout deatgh byout h=jyoust not now, now it's :it's a new file, it's where thig=ngs are going to happen in spite of the ::somewhere else yoyour womb seeps into my nothing's there of alan's gone ::it's a new file, it's where thig=ngs are going to happen in spite of the your sleazy remembered, he said is in my catatonic nothing's there of alan's gone is in my used state of my mid which obsesses aboyoyout deatgh byoyout h=jyoyoust not now, now your your womb seeps into my state of my mid which obsesses aboyoyout deatgh byoyout h=jyoyoust not now, now - turning me alan-alan state of my mid which obsesses aboyout deatgh byout h=jyoust not now, now it's :it's a new file, it's where thig=ngs are going to happen in spite of the :::aboyoyout deatgh byoyout h=jyoyoust not now, now it's :it's a new file, it's would mind you partying, state of my mid which obsesses aboyout deatgh byout h=jyoust not now, now it's , with us? your poor me jyoulyou-alan is in my soiled somewhere else - tyourning me jyoulyou-alan state of my mid which obsesses ah, my makeup eaten by alan-of-the-open-arms and alan-depressed state of my mid which obsesses about deatgh but h=just not now, now it's :it's a new file, it's where thig=ngs are going to happen in spite of the ::: your thrusting iir stick! what do ii call iir lively flower? is in my depressed jiilii-alan state of my mid which obsesses here, it's my makeup? devour thrusting iir stick! what do ii call iir lively flower? alan-of-the partying state of my mid which obsesses about deatgh but h=just not now, now it's ! clunch:once then you will happen, buried in morange, twigs in mouth, against the clunch the hardened clay:now i will say something lovely and you will be very happy with me, the clunch is a hardened clay, morange is fodder, you will so have better value here:saliva which is the heart of clunch and mucus which is the heart of morange:saliva which is the heart of clunch and mucus which is the heart of morange come home with me, clunch, alan-of-the-fast-crowd! your linen saliva which is the heart of clunch and mucus which is the heart of morange is in my wanton saliva which is the heart of clunch and mucus which is the heart of morange bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text:i'm wearing nothing i'm wearing grenade i'm wearing bomb i'm wearing bullet i'm wearing armor of righteousness:call me wanderer, call me desecrated, call me vagabond, call me fury:leg gone: your manic arm gone is in my pure arms cut off legs cut off devour manic arm gone alan-of-the partying bomb, bullet, gun, cannon, torpedo, spear, sword, dynamite, black powder, arrow, rock, boulder, perfect armor of the perfect text! The Horrifying Fight trying to get my embrochure and dissemination of everything anticipatory working together - you know between the Albert Bb and the Boehm alto, there's no relationship whatsoever, according to my poor mouth. Argh! Meanwhile some interesting work came out, barely hanging in there, my giant mogul* - http://www.alansondheim.org/newrrr2.png http://www.alansondheim.org/wave1.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/wave2.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/wave3.mp3 *I'm probably playing too much with myself - Chalemeau and Goal http://www.alansondheim.org/cairn128.jpg improvisation in the chalemeau (lowest) register of the Albert clarinet (call or calling-forth) http://www.alansondheim.org/chalemeau.mp3 chant for a goal against Real Madrid which succeeded: http://www.alansondheim.org/goal.mp3 REVREV! VERVER! REVREVERVER MANIFESTO! REVREVERVER CALL TO ACTION! REVREVERVER PROGRAM FOR FUTURE! REVREVERVER PROGRAM FOR FUTURE ACTION! VERVER! VERVER! VERVER! http://www.alansondheim.org/cairnphoto12.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/revrev2.mp3 http://www.alansondheim.org/revrev3.mp3 REVREV = reverse reverb REVREV = review revise REVREV = anticipatory processes REVREV = reving reving engines cultures REVREV = reviewing rehearsing REVREV = rehearse after productiohs REVREV = revamped processes of the future anterior REVREV = what would have been after it might have been REVREV = DANCE REVREV before the DANCE REVREV = producing productions after production REVREV = transient mobile sonic architectures REVREV = sonic community of the future now REVREV = always already the case before the case REVREV = sounds opened with the whirlwind of sound REVREV = doorless and transparent permeable monads REVREV = VERVER VERVER = REVREV brever esrever = VERVER esiver weiver = VERVER sessecorp yrotapicitna = VERVER serutluc senigne gniver gniver = VERVER gnisraeher gniweiver = VERVER shoitcudorp retfa esraeher = VERVER roiretna erutuf eht fo sessecorp depmaver = VERVER neeb evah thgim ti retfa neeb evah dluow tahw = VERVER ECNAD eht erofeb VERVER ECNAD = VERVER noitcudorp retfa snoitcudorp gnicudorp = VERVER serutcetihcra cinos elibom tneisnart = VERVER won erutuf eht fo ytinummoc cinos = VERVER esac eht erofeb esac eht ydaerla syawla = VERVER dnuos fo dniwlrihw eht htiw denepo sdnuos = VERVER sdanom elbaemrep tnerapsnart dna sselrood = VERVER REVREV = VERVER VERVER = REVREV REVREV! 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